Random Scribbled Story

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What keeps you going when things don’t go your way? Do you too crave for a shoulder to lay your heads on or do you want someone to lend their ears to you so that you can tell all that has been going down in your head for so long?

Do you expect a random text from somebody asking you how have been and why are you so quiet these days or asking you is your life treating you fair enough?

Like do you want complete isolation, dim light and you just starring at the empty walls of your room trying to figure out what has been going wrong, what needs to be fixed that you aren’t able to recognize, sometimes the answers you are wanting to get from your disturbed life lie in the chaos of your life. Maybe the thing that you’re trying outright isn’t the thing you ever wanted to do. Do you also relate to songs when you hear them and try to associate them with your life?

Do you also want to be treated like you have been treating everyone like?

Do you also want someone to go out of their way to come to you and take you for a walk? Do you also narrate all your stories to your pillow at night when no one is there to hear you out? Like do you sometimes just want to adore the raindrops dripping down your window pane and keeps starring the raindrops without blinking your eyes? Do you also sometimes, just sometimes talk to yourself asking why is it happening this way, when you never wanted this to happen? You know that it won’t take you anywhere still, you are wasting time because someone is trying to put the burden of their expectations on you and you somehow are trying to carry it making yourself believe that maybe someday it would work out for you too.

Do you also have plans and road maps of your life ahead but you just don’t know how to execute the blueprint that you have prepared after stressing your thought process most of the night twisting and turning on your bed. Do you also sometimes feel your life to be less useful and feel like asking the almighty 

“Who will cry when I die?” Like do you also come across such weird thoughts and then sometimes smile talking to yourself where this life does actually wants to take me? Would it really be worth waiting for? Will the work that I am putting all my heart in, is it going to make my life better? Will I be able to accomplish all I have ever wanted to through the process that I am going through?

Some questions trouble you in life and probably they haunt you more than a ghost ever does. They make you thoughtful and suddenly you start speaking less and feel not to be heard by all but only a few who could actually interpret what you are trying to convey. When you realize that one friend is enough for you if they can accept you with all your flaws not wanting to question you for the choices you made but trying to figure out what made you actually make those choices? Some things, sometimes do bother you, Isn’t it?